Thursday, October 1, 2009

1/5 down...

Thursday, October 1, 2009

First, happy October. Second, I'm 1/5 of the way through radiation treatment. I'm 7 treatments down and 28 to go.

It's fall and the leaves are beginning to turn. As the leaves begin to fall away, I can't help but equate my cancer journey with the turning of the seasons.

In the spring, as the new growth began, a tumor was growing in my body.

As the summer heat poured into open doors and windows, and roasting humans ran into air conditioned homes to escape the to cold, hot to went my chemo. From extreme discomfort to feeling almost normal, and back again...I pivoted between chemo on and off weeks.

Now, as the fall comes, all that spring and summer had to offer is falling away--my cancer is falling away.

I'm in the final stage of treatment and this experience is fading. The flurry of phone calls, cards, and letters has stopped. The phrase, "I have cancer," has left my vocabulary because, in all technicality, I no longer HAVE cancer.

For six months, no matter how hard I tried to avoid it, cancer dominated my life and controlled my existence. Now, as that period of my life begins to fade away, I find myself temporarily floundering--searching for how I move past this and resume some sort of normalcy. I'm working on it...but for now, I seem to be alternating between elation, frustration, and maintaining the status quo...

Let me stop right there. I apologize. This post was reflective at best, self-indulgent at worst, and the moment has passed. The effervescent, perky optimist will return with the next post...I assure you. For now, goodnight and thank goodness the weekend is near! TGIF!


  1. So glad it's finally coming to an end. :)

  2. Megan, it's Katie Skeel, and I can't believe it has been so long!. I feel really awful that I have lost contact with you through all of your hard times. All I know to say is that I'm sorry and that I'm so unbelievably proud of you. You were already one of the strongest people I know, and now you go above and beyond that. You are certainly a wonderful symbol for women everywhere, and to be strong enough to post a blog about it, just proves how strong you are through all of this. I would love to catch up with you sometime! I think I have a myspace and facebook account but I don't really use them. My email is and my number is still 405-306-8364. I know we haven't talked since California, but I'd like to change that. I'm so glad you are doing better, and that you were strong enough to get through this! Even if we aren't talking, please know that I'm still thinking of you, and miss you terribly!

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